Thank you so much for responding guys. I see most of the responses similar to what my dad/brothers and sisters say. My heart feels the same way but i get so scared asking for divorce. He just put it in my mind so badly that i can never find a guy so caring as him. I just get so weak at that point that i literally tell my dad that i think i can live with him without any relationship and kids my whole life. And i do feel that way at that time. Then later on when i think about it i feel thats so stupid. whats wrong with you. I was never like this but he has made me so weak. I am just trying to be strong but i dont know how. Sometimes i think he is not doing it purposely. He doesnt know why he is doing, probably he is going thru some problem too. But then i think ok so if he is not doing it purposely, still he had 5 years to figure out what the hell is the problem and he could have started working on the problem. When he cries, i start feeling guilty and i just feel how can i do that to POOR him. I dont know i was never like this but he has made me soo confused. I really felt good about your responses. It really made me feel like i m not crazy or its not that my expectations are too high.
Hey how you are feeling is completely normal and to be expected - have you heard of a "battered-wives' syndrome"?? Sometimes wives feel like they don't have a choice, they are afraid to leave and stick to the situation that brings them no-good. Please look into this syndrome and although your husband isn't physically abusive, you might still be able to understand how you're feeling and why. It'll help you get out of this disastrous, self-damaging relationship. Oh and it does NOT mean something is wrong with you, you are perfectly normal, just a small barrier is preventing you from taking a step that is so very needed. Will remember you in my prayers.
And was there some black magic done on you that's preventing you from telling us the details?
Very lame, CJ.
