gj badshah and gaia you both have been so thoughtful and given such caring and wise advice.
I appreciate the time you put into helping me.
what i confirm from gujars post is indeed she dissed me. that suspicion is confirmed.
how else how can a person say to another person who is mesaging them that they are going to kill themself, that 'oh dont do zaida drame'.
and this makes me angry...very angry.
gia i felt soyr for her and trusted her so mcuh becos she had lsot both parnets recently and i thougth someone who has gone thru so much pain can never put another thru it.
and also becos of the fcat she herself tried kiiling herself once after we hada fight and after that my faith in her went so high.
and yes i understand how her auntie etc would have wanted to get her married, and i thut initially that was the case, that her aunty found some guy and she had to obey her.
but that was not the case,im 99% sure. and she was an educated working profesionl girl who was not dependant on her aunty, and recently moved out anyway.
so the pressure from aunty thing is out of the equation.
but as u admitted, its the sudden dumping without any proper closure or explanations is what has left me stressed.
but i do remember right from the start of our relation when we were only friends she told me seriously that she is not a nice girl....maybe it was true.
about her hsuband...well..i have good feeling tht he doesnt knwo about her past and is a typical posseeive paki type.
well beccos of my mercy for her in this regard and stuff have been quiet and pateint till yet...but now i cant.
she v well knows me, and maybe is taking advnatge of this.
and i wont continue to be fooled again.
i dont intend to tell her husband her past, or cause trouble for her, but at the same time i do care about myself aswell.
i am going mad and i just must speak to her.
if her husband detects it, or somthing, what can i do.
i have had enough of being the worlds father teresa, not anymore.
its my right to demand and explantion from her thats all i know. i gave her so many chances to discreetly speak to me, to make upsomway...but she didnt
if i dont take out my frsutration on her i think it will remaiin inside be and otherwise coming out eventually on the rest of u female kind.
however some time back, she did give me some guys cell no, saying it was her husband whom i cud speak to whom she has told of me as a very good friend.
i did phone this guy, had a lil chat with him, i felt he was not her huuby but a cosin or friend who she wz trying to fool me.
the cell no she gave me was infact her own older second cell, maybe she forgot i had that too. if it really wa sher husband i dont know how de the hell she cud give it, cos she did have pasts b4 me too which i cud have disclosed.
wasey i dnt mean to cause any trouble.
all im simply going to pose her with is the question,
i just want to know that when you knew we loved each other sometime back, why did you not ask me b4 doing this.
you dont like it when people dump you, then what about others, and why did you not even give me a proper explanation when you knew how shocked i was, infact instead you left me to die.
....and ofcourse......although she told me that shes getting married b4 our break-up she never invited me to wedding.
---some friend.
you know day by day the more she holds me at distance i realise how bad she might actually have been.
and a lot of peolpe have hurt me i the past, who i have let go, and moved on,
but her i cant forget.
ive had enough people i think i will gather the courage soon and phone her with the intention for a proper chat.
im not gettng her out of my system. mi parnet s have found a gd rista for me, but this girl is in my head, who needs to be out b4 ne thing new.
if her husband find out that isnt my problme, why shud i take the blame. i have had enough mercy on her gave her enough chance, i even went to umra to pray to allah to make me forget her, but i cant.
all i ever asked her was come online for a little chat. is doing that cheating ur hsuband? i mean she is a 'broadminded girl' who has other male and fem friends she could just talk to me like another friend.
but maybe her husband finding out could be better for him too to know what kind of girl she really is.
i just cant beloive this happned. i did not expect it from her atleast.--here is a girl who has recently lost both parents ....wud anyone ever think such a sufferer could put another human thru same suferring?
i dont know if i really shud marry any girl after this though. and this is why i dont like pakistani people, they just greedy people, who alwsy aim to use anybody in anyway for thier own needs and befits..doesnt...matter if other guys end up bankcrupt..as long as you got ur benefit.
most of my own pakistani family anfd other pakis i know are also the same, so i think its a fair generalization.
sorry if it offends anybody.
anyway gia thnaks again for advice guja badhsha also for u. gujad thanks for pm offer, i think i wil do u. thanks again
But I will fone the girl soon at a planned and appropriate time.