Thank you for all your replies. This month has been super busy as I had exams but my brain has been in overdrive with thoughts of him - very stupid ‘what if’ thoughts, but I have been making an extra effort to keep busier and to try to take my mind off it. I realise it comes across stupid but it’s just what it is at the moment. I agree now that messaging him or chasing will just be silly and will show me as desperate. At the end of the day I know I deserve more than feeling sorry for myself over this scenario and it will take time but hopefully I will get there eventually.