thnks ms nj.
well its something i know, yet i can’t help. honestly speaking, though its right that i should socialize, yet wat was so nicely rendered by a poet, ~~ kia lutf anjuman ka jabb dil hi bujh gaya~~~ 
im down cos my love went away from me.
i know wat should i be upto, yet i cant help
it takes some real beating to get out of this agony, which seems prety difficult