X2 ... I've always had such a tough time replying to your situation in the rare times you talk about it. It is so far beyond what anyone should have to endure and my heart just breaks over the whole thing.
Your babies were always in the hands of God/Allah though. And while they were allowed to be in your hands for a few hours, He called them back and thats His perogative.
I'm so glad that tough decisions were taken out of your hands and put into the hands of the One Who Decides all things. And may they both be at the gates of heaven waiting for you when its your time to go there.