Re: What to do when...
Well, all I can think of is the fact that lies have been spread against me. That is such a long long story. I've never had problems like this before.
I had an excellent learning period when I was going for my lab diploma. My boss there said I was an excellent worker and divers.
I also had a typing job where my boss was enthusiastic because of my typing speed.
I did have family problems in the past which sometimes influenced my work. But apart from that, I've been an excellent worker, or so my former bosses have told me anyway.
Maybe the problem really is the bad name being given to me. Since the last months of 2002 lies are being spread against me and my family. It's such a long story. I don't exactly know what's going on. There are all kinds of crazy stories running around and don't seem to stop.
I've blamed myself first, I thought it was me. But now I slowly realise it's not. I talked to some rare friends and they found me normal. Months ago one Pakistani lady warned me though, she said I was being hugely discussed in a terrible negative light.
My family regularly tells me about new idiotic stories. Nobody seems to know the source. I've been a home student since 2004, I've really been inside at home msot of the day studying all day long, watching tv, reading books and not going outside much. Still the weird stories didn't stop. I have done nothing to cause those stories. They are there, wether I go out or stay at home, wether I have a job or not.
And when I look at the kind of weird comments directed towards me at work, it's almost certain the lies spread against me are a major force in their behaviour towards me.
I don't care anymore if I'm hated or not. I find people who treat other people bad just because of stories they heard very shallow. If I would treat someone bad adn then that person hates me, I deserve it. But as long as I'm polite and treat everyone with respect, and still I get treated bad, it's obvious it's not normal and if it really is because of lies being spread against me, then it is so shallow and I find people like that low.
You can't like every single person on earth. But what's wrong with being respectful and normal to each other? Why try to ruin each other, why try to ruin someones working experience? And if there really is something wrong with me, then they should tell me instead of playing games with me.