Re: what should I do…?
You have been so thru much and seen how he treated you, esp when you needed him most..
Also I don’t think if he really liked you he’d be able to go a year without speaking to you, no matter how scared or worried or whatever he was. A decent guy would have at least tried to contact you, I think it’s more likely he was seeing someone else during that time..
I don’t think you should marry someone else whilst he in still in your head tho, when the right person comes along (inshAllah) you should naturally be able to forget about him or at least only have him in the back in the mind and let go of all those feelings..