what should I do....?

[sweet_iez55]

Re: what should I do…?

@Mirch

Sorry to read about you losing your mother. May Allah give her maghfarat and grant her high place in Jannat. Ameen.

Answer to your relationship question:

You love him alright , does he love you, what has he done to prove that ? Nothing , zilch , nada ,zero , cipher .
Nothing in your story tells me that he has ever done anything nice to prove his love for you.
He has used your love for him as a boomerang , he goes away on an adventure when that adventure fails or is over he comes back to your tavern of love to seek solace from one failed adventure to another.
Move on and stop dreaming of a life with this adventurer. ***Once the honey moon is over he will go on an adventure , when you are pregnant with his kid he will start another adventure , when you will be in hospital he will be climbing mount Everest and every time he will have perfect story and a perfect excuse. ***
Wake up ,open your eyes and smell the coffee the sweet dream is over.

Ameen, May Allah rest her in peace.

you are right, his is not the person who deserves to be loved. i did the biggest mistake of my life to do so… :S