I don’t know. I was in love with someone else before I married my husband, but my parents didn’t want to wait for him to get his life in order so he could marry me. I didn’t really have a choice in marrying my husband. He’s better than what I could have gotten, but I still miss my ex to death. 3 years later and I still dream about him often, and wake up in tears. He begged me not to get married half an hour before my nikkah, and even came to me a week after my marriage and begged me to run away with him.
I’ve been through a lot in my life.. but this is the worse pain ever. I had to cut off all relations with him due to my husband, and every day I wish I could find him and just tell him that I love him and I’m so sorry for hurting him.
I ended up crying just writing this.
He was the only person who ever accepted me, regardless of my faults and my problems, and loved me for who I was.
