All this time(around 2 years) I have been resisting any professional/external help on this situation.., always resorting to internalizing... & not expressing how I feel. This was the first time I tried to share some of my internal thoughts my conclusion after this is that I was right internalizing . Don't get me wrong most people here have been very kind... , much beyond my expectation.., But I believe nothing anyone (friend or a professional) will tell me that I already dont know.., its a phyciological problem in my head & convolution of my thoughts which only I will have to help myself escape from . Just remember me in your prayers. Thanks everyone for your sincere responses.
Tell me about it!!!
I know, its really very frustrating. (no offence to anyone, its just how one feels sometimes)
Turn to God, that's the single, most important, AND UNDERSTANDING guidance one can get in life.
Cheers