You can’t say that because you don’t know anything about it.
But the point I wanted to make was that you have made it way to complicated for yourself.
If ten people suggest you something, it is not likely that that advice would have any meaning. But here ten people will suggest you ten different things. Is this complicating the situation or what?
My honest suggestion is go talk to a very close friend of yours, who understands you. Ask for his/her advice and implement it. And I know implementing is the hardest part.