Isn’t it hard somethimes to understand what you really want from life.
You tell yourself you’ll be happy if you had A, B, C and D and no matter how small or insignificant those things are, no matter how many people in the world have it…somehow…you just never seem to get it.
I’ve won so many awards, prizes, trophies and what not…been appreciated by so many people yet to the people I love the most I feel I’m “nothing but a nothing”.
There are certain people I’m always tuned into..no matter where I am, what I’m doin they seem to be the only thing on my mind…are they ok? are they in trouble? do they need me?
Every spare moment away from my duties is spent thinking about them, and seeing if they’re alrite yet I know in thier hearts I’m probably the last person they’re thinking about. Even if they do spare a thought about me they probably aren’t too worried abut how I’m feeling.
Maybe I’m just too sensitive…or maybe I just feel unloved in my life.
Maybe I’m too selfish..and all I’m thinking about is making myself happy…somedays I think the hapiness of one comes at the cost of another’s..like if I’m to be happy then someone will be sad because of it.
I know we all got to suffer in life…but somedays it’s hard even for a clown like me to smile through the tears.
lol. i don’t think either of us understands these feelings… what she expressed, is how i feel inside. However, the issue of why i feel this way - is incomprehensible to myself. All i can do is try to articulate it into words…
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*Originally posted by Munni: *
My problem is I know exactly what I want, I am just not yet willing to do everything it takes to get it. I'm too selfish as yet.
Regarding others, I think its the other way around, that I dont care enough about others as they do for me. Trying to change that.
sighz
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My considered opinion about you is that you are selfishly-devilish!
Change urself on war-footing.
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*Originally posted by lastknightess: *
Somedays you think you're the most blessed person in the world...but everyone who knows you feels cursed.
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Are you feeling down? Specify the reasons or incidents. I am a psychologist geared up enough to get you out of it right now. Any delay might cause you do the same for me:)
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*Originally posted by lastknightess: *
Capricorn I fear that someday the people I love will forget about loving me...does that make sense?
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A little explanation, do those u love, love you too at the moment?
Yes they do but somedays I think my love isn;t good enough and soon someone else's love will over shadow mine.
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Remember that those who love can never forget even if things worsen between the two. Love is a feeling which has to stay. I have this experience learned through seeing so many around you that love has never ceased to be once it finds its way in. Is that enough?
i don’t think either of us understands these feelings… what she expressed, is how i feel inside. However, the issue of why i feel this way - is incomprehensible to myself. All i can do is try to articulate it into words…
