Re: The return of the ex....
Dudess, Make sure you find a mature guy to "live out" your "youth" with.
Then tell new guy every bit of your past, and your feelings about last dude(now consider those feeling as your weakness)
Ask for help!!!! from new dude. If he loves you he would. If he is "enjoying" you "living out" your "youth" with him--then he wont get too involved. And chances are he would cut him self lose and run, when your baggage become a headache for him.
It doesn't seem like you have maturity to see or identify when you are getting abuse/use.
I have feeling you are going to collect lot more baggage on way to hmmmm getting mature.
But hey, its "living out"