Sweetheart I attended mosque here in London form the age of 5 to 16, 2hrs, 5days a week - it was hanafi. Anyway, once I got a bit older, i’m 29 by the way, I started to read, everything and anything - the 4 mhadabs, giving credence to jurisprudential rulings by al azhar, al ghazali, different biographies of the prophet (loved the one by Martin Lings btw, well worth a read), different sufi traditions from shariat compliant sufis such as Hajweri to those that seem a bit looney (lol) like Rumi and Shams Tabreez, Twelver shia books, ismaili books etc you get the jist of what I’m saying, won’t bore you with a complete bibliography lol. Anyway, what I had been programmed to believe turned out to be bs imo. Sunni Islam seems to be heavily loved up with Ummayid clan imo. suffice to say my inclinations are more shia leaning now (I was once totally anti-shia) although I don’t beat my self or go to shia mosques or anything nor do I curse Shahaba. To me it’s simple, I have mates, but who knows me better my mates or my family?
Also, sunnis tend to hate logic, they say even a shaih hadeeth defies logic, one can’t question it, lol - dissect the hadeeth about keeping fast on 9th and 10 th of Muharram due to Moses, lol, enough said! Similarly, some things shia say and do imo are bat**** crazy. For example, the sixth imam, Imam Jafar (AS) allegdly says that when going to majalis for Muharram, even if you have no tears flowing from your eyes, force yourself to cry? LIke seriously? I class my self as Muslim, neither shia nor sunni, not the best of Muslims mind you, lol. Just read, don’t let fat mullahs who scream and screech from the pulpit influence you - they are the reason why muslims are in the state they are today. SUnni’s also tend to be accepting of the innovations of Umar (ra) yet “Zaban pur tala lug jata hai” when anything Ali (AS) centric is raised, it is simply shouted down as shia propaganda. Just my two cents.