Do I need a disclaimer first? I am a muslim, alhamdulilah. I am an ordinary person and do what ordinary people do - and I am definitely less informed than a lot of you people who have good understanding of religion. There are certain questions that bother me at times, I don’t know if I am not supposed to think about this stuff, but perhaps this is our nature as humanoids. I do believe in Allah, the supreme power, whose existence is evident scientifically and spiritually.
Compared to the universe, or even our planet, my existence is nothing. In the wide array of things, I am just a negligible and insignificant biological being. Why was I created in the first place? Are all my actions, my birth, my death, my fate, my reward and punishment - all pre-decided? What am I doing running around then? Where does my free will fit in? Religiously, I am a negligent and defiant person. I am not at all regular at namaz. So am I in for an infinite period of torture and punishment? If I die today, I don’t see many compelling reasons for my forgiveness. Alright, first question would be namaz? So they would be dragging my defiant butt straight to the pits of hell right after the first question. For some laziness and some defiance due to stupid reasons (unfortunate events, pessimistic feeling, just being upset), I would be punished for enernity? Now why would Allah want to do that and how is that fair? Honestly when I hear people talk about the azaab in grave and hereafter, it scares the heck out of me. Like how many more minutes, hours, days, months or years do I have here - struggling to survive - before I am taken away for an eternal chitter parade?
Further, things which perhaps I shouldn’t be thinking about are - why did Allah create insignificant beings like us in the first place? Does he just sit there and keep watching us do our thing? and later he will have the judgement day and then watch us burn in hell or enjoy in heaven? He created all the souls, he created good and evil, so if someone is evil, how is that his fault? What would he be punished for - if it was his fate to do evil and this is what he was made for? How do you informed and educated people satisfy atheists of these questions?
I know some of these questions are plain stupid. If any of you people, who are much more sensible and learned mashallah, can give me any clear answers, I would really appreciate it. If not, I would understand.
Please, do not confuse me further with any complex mumba jumba or links. Thank you.
Sounds more like the godfather.