I just called my mother to ask about our home in Pakistan. I've decided to move to Pakistan. Our home in Kotli has a normal toilet and bathroom. Nowadays there are many shops in Kotli where they sell most things you need. There seems to be internet connection possible.
I was assured that if I go there, my negative family members won't make any trouble so life should be better. I will miss many things from Holland. But at least nobody will throw eggs and apples at my home there, and the neighbours there are friendly and nice. I have many cousins and nieces and nephews there. My parents come there every year, at least my mother mostly does. I will come to Holland to visit my parents here. Nobody will harass my children en try to start fights with me. I'm going to teach, at least, my mother says I could get a job there easily. She said I should think about it really carefully. But I've already decided to do it.
I'm already crying, thinking about the things I'm going to miss.