Omg I cant believe my dad and my chachu....... well like you guys know Ive been talking to my dad and stuff...... well I was talking to my dad and telling him that I think I should make my own decisions and I really want to take a little control over my life and I want you to be supportive of that..... I told him that I dont wanna kick him out of my life but I want him to encourage me and just support me with I do and will do..... I told him that this is a really difficult decision for me and one of the biggest decisions Im taking and I really need him to stand besides me and just help me through this whole thing......
like always he was like what will my family think and what will they say and this and that ...... and I told him just for once be on my side and try to understand that this isnt about them and their not the one who has to spend the entire life with that person its me and Im not happy....... then he started saying that "mein ounko zaleel kari houn" and all I said was its not my fault that he drinks and about how greedy his family is...... I knew it I already told my sister that it wont matter whose fault is it because in the end my dad is gona blame me, which I was right about and is happening.... so he called my chachu and said I cant handle her and she wants to make her own decisions aur yeh apni marzi ki maalik hai, and he made me talk to my chachu...... thats when I asked him if I was his daughter or chachuz but like always he never had an answer.....
So I talked to my chachu and told him everything and he was like well atleast you can do is talk to your MIL because shes been calling and I told him that I dont want to cuz I know shes gona force my to talk to my husband and I dont wana talk to him....... so hes like well whats gona happen right now is that we'll go over their house and question them about why they didnt tell us that he drinks... and then we'll see what happens.... and Im just sitting here in shock of what these people are doing I mean ive made my decision and I have a reason to do all this and my family is still blaming me...... WTF am I suppose to do I mean these people are living in their own damn world and want everything their way.......
I was thinking that I should just call my husband and tell him straight up that Im done.... I have no other choice, Ive been dealing with all this in a way so that my dad wont get hurt and would understand but nothing gets to his head and all he cares is about him and his family and about other people...... I understand the part when he says that ill get labled as a divorcee but I can live with that..... as long as Im not with a man I hate and have every right to......