Re: Should I go with him?
I don't know...I feel I'm a bad muslim and I think I'm losing my religion. I'm in utter need of spirituality.
If you wish for light, be ready to receive light.
Nourish your ego and be deprived of light.
If you wish to find a way out of this prison,
do not turn away; bow down in worship and draw near.
Before you judge my actions
Lord, I pray you will forgive.
Before my heart has broken,
will you help my soul to live?
Before my eyes are covered,
Will you let me see your face?
Before my feet are tired,
May I reach your dwelling place?
You will watch me Lord, I hold.
Before I throw my mantle
Will you take me in your fold?
Before my work is over,
You, my Lord, will right the wrong.
Before you play your music,
Will you let me sing my song?
By the mercy of God Paradise has eight doors — one of those is the door of repentance, child.
All the others are sometimes open, sometimes shut; but the door of repentance is never closed.
Come seize the opportunity: the door is open
Many prayers are declined because of the rank odor of a corrupt heart rising through the beautiful words. Let the words be wrong, but the meaning right. That flawed utterance is dearer to God.
and also the fact that I'm gonna be 30 soon and I haven't accomplished anything.
Take a moment and just look at your kids. Don't think, just look at them. Are they not a miracle that you have helped with? I've seen your blog, MashaAllah that is nothing less than any other accomplishment.
And if you have any aspirations, 30 is in no way a point of no return. You still have a whole lot of life in you. There's no stopping you.
Sometimes it helps to just take a step back and go over your life. A to Z.