Have you really cried for three days?. LIKE WE BELIEVE YOU :p… People do hurt without tears. Your reasoning makes an indication of unwillingness to have an emotional bonding with your wife .You have no morals! You dont know how much Allah has blessed you. I would suggest you to get married to the Russian girl. I wish she finds someone better than you in 3 years, starts an affair with him, leaves you for him. Now, that’s what I call karma.