Re: Sad, angry and confuse
We fall in love - and when he didn’t reject the idea to become a muslim. 1998 he converted - we wait till 2000 to get married because I dont want to rush thing. I moved to canada - I went to see the imam there and told the imam can we nikah so that we dont commit sin (zina) the imam say why not it’s a good step. He flew from usa and we got nikah in 2000. from the beginning I only teach him how to recite Bismillah, Assalamulaikum and Syahādah. I pray and fasting and told him why I need to do it. I told him I want to wear hijab because as a muslim I must cover my head. I always bring him to celebrate ouf festival with other muslim family .. so he can have or talks to other muslim man.
Well maybe my expetation is too high. 