Re: Regrets..
Thanks everybody for your responses.I've always been a whiny little ***** and that's never going to change I guess and if anything I'm going to get more whiny since now I've lost all hope of trying to make things right. Just have to bring myself to move on from this somehow but my mind and heart are in conflict.If I knew how to I wouldn't whine, I wouldn't cry, I'd simply move on.How do you move on from something that's been engrained into your very being and every thought process revolves around it.It hurts waking up every morning and telling yourself that it was YOUR FAULT this happened and having to live with that till whenever your time comes.Why couldn't I see it, why couldn't I act upon it when it mattered the most. Haha, funny thing is, I'd be telling any other guy in my position that it's no use crying over spilt milk and to live with the decisions you make but NO, you can't, you just ****ing can't live with the bad painful decisions. It hurts too much and eats you on the inside like a turmite just making you hollow day after day.
I wish I was stronger mentally and not this emotional wreck.I'm done beating around this, moderators can you please lock this thread to further replies.