Re: Ok I am seeking justifications for my actions but
I am sorry and apologize , I did not read your post being too long. I made the mistake of picking up my vibes from other peoples post. It is last time I did so. It used to work but did not work in your case. I thought you were a typical desi teenager with raging hormones and looking for some puppy love and failing again and again. But now since I have read you post (phew it is one long post though) I have the complete picture , but people have already given you good advise and I have nothing more to add.
P.S I have a daughter that is why I said what I said by misjudging your post.