Re: need advise...cant decide abt shadi:(
Clearly your not over it and you yourself said you cant forgive him. You will carry on bringing up this girl for the rest of your life. Its normal. However he will soon have enuff and probly cheat again and maybe divorce you.
You can only go thru with it if you forgive him properly because the more you stress him out about it, Hes jus gonna go further away to some other girl.
I wud think long and hard about it... Love isnt everything... You'll get stronger and possibly meet someone much better.