I am amazed that you feel you are the one learning the deen for yourself and I am the one following scholars blindly … Rather you have admitted in your post that you “feel” such and such a fabrication without putting any effort in to verify it. Also, you are the one who uses translations made by scholars - using falsely translated ayat without doing your own research and learning Arabic for yourself …
I urge you - if you feel that your scholars cannot earn you any shield or protection by being the ones with knowledge - then I urge you to become as knowledgeable about the deen as they are otherwise you have no one to turn to except yourself. Learn Arabic, tajweed, memorisation of Qur’an, Fiqh to the level of mufti and learn your aqidah - if you are Deobandi then that is Maturidi (Imam Maturidi was a great scholar by the way) …
Learn these things if you feel you are solely responsible for your beliefs and actions … if you do not learn them then how you can come here and debate such matters is beyond me.