my turmoils begin again. fed.up of myself.

Re: my turmoils begin again. fed.up of myself.

^ this. So you do know that when you eventually move back to the UK permanently , you still have to go a year or two w/o your husband. It will take you some time to find a job with the specific pay, work for a minimum 6 months to get the required pay slips, work a few more month to have some savings. The apply for the visa and wait a few more months till you actually get a visa.

If this was your permanent move, you would have to “burden” your mom anyways with your kids.

If you work these 5 months, you can have some savings. Even if it is part time.

I wonder how you afford a 5 month holiday ? Air tickets, cost of living in UK with 2 kids etc etc with only one salary? Do you parents pay for your expenses while you are there??