Fingirl, i understand your hurt and i know how it feels to be lied to again and again.
But at the same time, as soon as he tries to change you dont accept or acknowledge him.
Why did you refuse the idea of living separately when he visited the third time? You should really look at countless opportunities that youve deliberately missed.
You should let go of the hurt youve felt during your engagement, and try to change yourself a little bit. Maybe you feel guilty for not listening to your parents and now subconsiously your trying to break the tie. Maybe. I dont know.