You are welcome.
I hope you really do move on this time because no matter how many times you go through this process and for however many years, you will find the exact same answers.
Might as well cut your losses now and go out and do what you think is right and think will make you happy and bring you peace.
take care and be careful out there.
^I have been through this process at least 20 times. I have been struggling with this for the past 10 years. It’s about time I let go of it and do what I feel is right, which is to help people in need. There are a lot of people who can use my help.
Anyway, I am sure people here are sick of me questioning everything and I am sick of not understanding any of it (there isn’t anything to understand anymore). One thing I have learned though is if you believe in something 100% no matter how stupid it sounds, you will defend it with your life.
If 1.5 billion people believe in a book that’s been handed to you as the absolute truth and guide, then that’s where you will look for answers. Everything will revolve around it, not the other way around. You will understand everything THROUGH that book. There are no contradictions in that book, if it says it’s night then that’s what it will be even if it’s clearly daylight outside.. It’s all about what you believe.
Anyways, I have found my answers. I have a purpose now. I know what I need to do to have peace.
Thank you all