One thing i would say about our relationship is...him threatening to throw me out the window is something i would laugh at because i always say things to him like if your mean to me ill push you under a bus and im sure i have threatened to kill him and many different ways and bite his nose off and pluck his eye balls out etc etc....so sometimes i get confused about when is aggression is real or not.....
this is really bad but....i find his aggression really attractive....ITS BAD I KNOW, i hate myself for finding it attractuive...but all the men im attracted too are the same...tall, bulky, egotistical and full of testosterone....argh
p.s. thanks sara
He pushed you, Alvena. Now unless, that was an exaggeration, I took the word "push" literally. You're making excuses for him. Even if he hadn't touched you aggressively, his rude behavior should be reason enough for you to move on.
No, aggressive behavior is not attractive. Do you associate it with masculinity? Is that the reason? It takes a lot more courage to have control over your emotions than it is to lose control and treat others like dirt (that's weak character, if anything). You said it yourself that you go after such guys and you've implied you don't feel great about it. You're recognized your problem, so work on it. Start by moving on from this guy, don't contact him, focus on school. Clear your head, in the process you'll find someone who is "masculine" in a more healthy way.
seriously i think i might need some therapy.....i just like the cave man hunter gatherer can stand up for himself and put me in my place type of guy and as long as he doesnt hit me im game.....WHICH IS BAD.
Alot of my friends are like this too....we are all mental basically.
Mixed beauty and magic 8 ball thankyou so much i love you guys! I was feeling rubbish before and im feeling so much more in control and much better now. Thankyou so much to those of you who have been understanding.
If this was one of my friends i would be saying the same thing i just go bonkers whens its to do with me!
p.s. yes he did actually push me...if he had pushed me with all his strength i would have died...im glad he didnt do that.
seriously i think i might need some therapy.....i just like the cave man hunter gatherer can stand up for himself and put me in my place type of guy and as long as he doesnt hit me im game.....WHICH IS BAD.
Alot of my friends are like this too....we are all mental basically.
Mixed beauty and magic 8 ball thankyou so much i love you guys! I was feeling rubbish before and im feeling so much more in control and much better now. Thankyou so much to those of you who have been understanding.
If this was one of my friends i would be saying the same thing i just go bonkers whens its to do with me!
p.s. yes he did actually push me...if he had pushed me with all his strength i would have died...im glad he didnt do that.
No problem hun, I wud suggest keeping yourself low key for abit, Let him talk to you, brush him off abit, when you sent him a harsh txt he didnt bother, When he sends you one, Your still running after him. Hes got you worked out. Dont be in his face too much, And again if you like him and he sees you with your ex your really just asking for trouble.
i think he is really very insecure about seeing me with other men....i remember once i mentioned some guy to him who i thought was good looking and he went completely crazy not at me but generally in a really weird mood saying things like friends should never go out and it makes it too awkward and generally other crazyness and weirdness and off bheaviour ....hmmmm actually i see a pattern emerging possibly?
the placement im at..at the moment its only me him my ex and another guy who i know and socialise with because we are all now spread around the midlands so guess im going to have to avoid everyone for a while! and entertain myself and just study.
If you want to be a doc you need to get your priorities straightened out, quit flirting with boys shamelessly, instead focus on your work and quit failing. There are no rooms for mistakes or distractions in that field, because it costs you a life. So quit acting like a kid and grow up.
He clearly saw you socializing with your ex and he is unhappy. I don't blame him. He should not have pushed you, which shows he is as much of a kid as you are.
Sorry for the tough love, but get your act together if you want to be bestowed the privelege of taking care of other people's lives. Because at the moment, it scares me that such silly people are trying to become docs.
i appreciate what your saying PCG but just because im a medical student doesnt make a perfect human being with no emotions.....my patients always come first and i would never ever put anyone at risk i would walk out than treat someone on a day i couldnt concentrate.