Married people, was your first love, really a love?

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Re: Married people, was your first love, really a love?

@psyah

I feel really sick and full of remorse when not so nice things happen between us, I can have cool times too when things go well -I seek things but they are not entirely reached … marriage seems so heavy compared to life before marriage … but I only want my wife and no one else to be with me in heaven, hoping she feels the same way … if she does - she does not let on …

I know that I don’t excite her … I know I can be mean to her … but I only want her companionship here and in heaven …

I know that if we are together in heaven - our desires that we have had in this world - will be met 10 times over in each other … And on this level there is no fantasy and no prior “love” that can compare to how I feel about my wife … I want to be the one who has the honour who sees her eclipse the beauty of 70 hoors.

wow that’s deep psyah bhai MashaAllah