I’m highly highly highly emotional these days.. well only for the past week.. I think it started last week. Not sure why… I’m fine at work.. glowing as mister puts it. But, as soon as i get home, I become this roni soorat emotionally retarded larki..
I havent been yelling or anything.. but the stuff I end up thinking like how im a bad daughter, cant cook, clean.. a nalaik person.. man, a lot of rubbish goes thru my head..
I think, the thought of not living under the same roof as my family is getting to me.. no, i dont think, it is the case… I burst out into tears lastnight.. I havent cried like such a baby in yonks.. dad freaked out.. although half an hour earlier he was ready to declare me as a lost case.. i think he realises that this moving out business is finally kicking in..
its really normal, i used to cry cause no one was paying attention to me. and im being sooooo sensitive, and its totally normal. its gonna be hard the first few months but after that it gets ok. not something ur used to, but its ok. its diff when ur mom does things for u, cooks for u, takes care of u..you'll be leaving all that behind. now im gonna cry. im sad too now. and Eid wont be the same, food wont be the same, ugh
I only discovered this lastnight that its quite normal to be feeling the way I do… I feel so leftout of conversations… like I keep thinking that my siblings and dad dont really care if I exist or not… mums overseas so im missing her heaps…i wish she was here… i have tears just waiting to fall out…
i dont even think its about cooking and cleaning.. i dont mind doing that.. i just think im totally incapable of making good food.. or doing things right..
i think its just a mental thing… i’ll prob be ok in a few weeks..
I suppose its understandable. Its the sheer stress pounding on you now, sounds like. Don't worry. Have u talked to your fiance about this? Maybe he can relate.
Yeah, I spoke to him lastnight.. he reckons im handling it pretty well.
I didnt think I'd be goign thru this at all, i guess thats why im even more suprised. I really cant wait to be married and live with my hubby to be... but yeah, i think not being around the people ive lived with for 25 years.. thats kinda scary too
You are sooo lucky. You are marrying a man who totally worships and adores you, who you love just as much. Most importantly, you will be so close to your family. You can visit them everyday or they can even visit you. Your siblings WILL miss you when you leave and will also make the effort to come and see you when you can’t go over. I am sure it won’t be that bad … think of all those girls who move to different countries after getting married. You will still be home, just 15 minutes away.
Hey sadzz, it is just a phase and you’ll be fine. When my sister was getting married she was always mad at me( ), depressed, etc etc.. pretty much the same thing but once she got married everything was fine. You’ll always be the part of family as you were before.
Chalo larkii cheers:hug:
That reminds me of myself 2 months ago. :D I was highly emotional those days and cried about every little thing. I thought something was wrong with me, but it looks like a lot of girls go through it.
i sooo know what u mean.
and I thought you were the brave girl who was going to Gujrawala. ahan..very smart 
Congratulations 
), depressed, etc etc.. pretty much the same thing but once she got married everything was fine. You’ll always be the part of family as you were before.