sighs okay dear
Its your life, obviously no matter what we say is just a waste because you won’t act on it. I hope you can survive on your delusions because you’ll end up hurting yourself more in this marriage.
If you think you’ll be happier being a lifeless servant who cries all the time then by all means stay with him but you and him will both be miserable because not only will you be hurting yourself but hurting him too.
