Re: Marriage falling apart 
lol, I love the way you talk/write! 
No, seriously, he’s a really good person, loving, and caring. The only similarity we have is that we’re both doormats. He’s a doormat to his parents/siblings and I’m a doormat to everyone! He wanted kids at the beginning of our marriage when we were both 21 and I delayed until now (we’re 27). He supported my decision UNTIL his parents moved closer and told him God knows what! Yeah, in the beginning we used to disagree on things and I used to cry, but he’d always sit there and kiss me, bring me water, something to eat, and tell me everything will be alright (his family problems, etc.). He still hugs me/calms me down when I start crying but only after he’s finished yelling. In the past months I’ve started yelling extremely too, which I’m really guilty of, coz I am not like that at all.
Honestly, Im more concerned and scared of what kind of person I AM turning into, and what kind of personality I AM adapting to than what kind of person HE has become. I just don’t feel “ME” anymore, I feel like I’m living a life of someone else. No one has forced me to live this way but still I’m in a circle of disappointment, a never-ending circle.
Walking out of this, yes I’ve thought many times, not out of hate for him but only because we both deserve someone like us and only to end this hurt we’re both going through…but, with the whole world thinking that we’re a perfect couple, I feel like I’ll cause more disappointment to others and myself, and of course happiness to some. My parents were divorced too, and with me getting a divorce, my mom will be devastated and I fear that I won’t find someone else, and will be alone all my life. I fear loneliness, may be due to my low self-esteem but seriously even if I leave him, I’ll never be able to love anyone or be with anyone again. He was my first crush, love, everything 