Long Distance

[sammi4ever]

Re: Long Distance

@Sady

@sammi4ever

In your entire post, you only spoke good of him & did not mention a single habit you do not like about him or a single incident/meeting with him which you found to be awful. So Im having a hard time getting why you’re not happy with him as a husband. To be honest, I just feel that either you’re very tired, not getting enough sleep, having a poor diet, taking too much caffein & stressing over nothing. Stop thinking too much if you do not really see any ‘red flags’ in your husband’s actions.

Or you’re just worried about losing personal freedom. Like, doing your own stuff when you want. What is it exactly that bothers you about him? Is he too dominating? Bullies you? Just relax, take good rest, sleep, eat healthy, exercise. You’ll feel better about yourself, him & your relationship with him.

Yeah, it’s killing me on the inside too. I know that I really do like him ALOT, like I would even say I’ve fallen for him. Yet each time I work things out with him suddenly I’m majorly stressed out. Confused, stressed, and depressed. I lose focus on everything and just become this weird thing. It’s like I lose life. I think it’s because (a) he isn’t here, and I’m having a hard time coping with that. I bet personal freedom has quite a bit to do with it too, but honestly I wanted to make it work with him. I wouldn’t mind trying to change and accommodate, but like I said stress isn’t really something I have no control over. Maybe it’s habit? I would’t mind even the stress, if I didn’t stress eat! It makes me feel like even worse. And esp since I have eating issues, it’s hard. I do think to much though. I guess thinking to much and then loss of personal freedom (or the thought of it) starts my initial stress, and then I start craving things, and then I eat those things in large quantities, and it just all goes downhill from there. I used to be in this constant depressed and bingeing cycle for 2 years of my life. It was horrible and I don’t want to go back to that. When I start bingeing after talking to him, it really scares, frustrates, and just kills me. I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHY. The only time I stress eat is when it’s concerning him or if it’s concerning my self esteem (like when I don’t feel confident). Bingeing also leads me into the confused state, and then all I can do is worry/obsess over tryna get out of it. But yeah maybe it’s cause of habit? Back when our issues started I used to stress eat ALOT for everything. Then that started going down, and now I’m eating well most of the time, without stress eating. But whenever I talk to him I get these intense cravings. I hate it. This whole thing has taken alot from me. First it took 3-4 years of my life, and now my relationship :(. It’s difficult.

Like there are a thousand different feelings i’m feeling. They all mesh together and it’s just so messy and excuse my language but f’ed up.