You’re having a bout of Bella Syndrome..(Twilight charachter) Having the cake and eating it..
Inside of you , you know that said “friend” has feelings for you and as you liked him in the past, you don’t want to go cold turkey as it must be nice to have someone who knows you and likes you for who you are but I assure you that no matter how many girls are running around your fiance right now.. it will nark him to know that you are friends with a guy who is not muslim in a western “mahaul” where he can’t see or hear about what you do
Engagement and Marriage are not comparable.. let’s get an update from you once married to see the changes in hubs and you …
For you to write here about it, shows you have a conscience so maybe go with your gut feel of what feels right…