Bhai, are you handicapped or unable to find the way on your own. Your problem is that you might never have sincerely read the Quran complete with its tafsir and the Sirah of Prophet SAW from front to back on your own. There is no shortcut here, you will always stay in the same confused state as long as you run away from doing it yourself. How long will you hide your own lacking by using interpretations of others?
If you were sincere you would have done this by now than rather be trigger ready here all the time to grill some Mullah.
A sensible person who has honestly studied the Quran and Sirah genuinely can easily figure out the answer to the question in the blink of an eye.