I started this job right… for the summer holidays, anyways there’s someone who comes into work now and then who I think I’m in love with, I’m not Dil-Phaink, I admit I have lots of crushes and infatuations with anything on two legs and more often than not it’s only coz of lust but this time it’s more, sex hasn’t even crossed my mind, it’s the first time I’ve actually had any proper feelings for someone I’m not related to by blood, I think about this person 24/7 ever since I saw them, they don’t come in often which is a bit of biatch but when we do see each other I’ve not even got the guts to say “hi”, I get all self conscious and nervous, yesterday we actually spoke for the first time and I swear to God I almost had an heart attack…
The problem is I don’t think I could ever have this person for a reason which is best kept secret from you lot, then there’s the looks here’s me an average “tanned Jewish looking” guy and then there’s gorgeous who is one of Allah’s masterpiece’s, perfect flawless golden skin, button nose, doe-eyes, perfect slim-toned hairless body…
…Like all that wasn’t bad enough, today I disclosed my secret to a colleague and guess what? It’s the big bosses offspring, God that fell on me like ten tonnes of bricks, I didn’t stand a chance anyway but now I’m just riff raff and my beloved is like crème de la crème, they’re millionaires and own the company I work for and a quarter of that company is under my beloveds name according to my colleague and what am I a mere ‘servant’ at their place?
God for this person I could have gone against my religion and culture, ran away from home and leave my family (when I daydream I get a bit carried away sometimes) but now I can’t even dream without feeling silly, I been crying and I’ve never done that for anyone before (I have to put on an act even when relatives die), even if I had the chance with this person I wouldn’t want to anymore because I feel I’m not worthy in anyway… Allah I don’t know what to do, I don’t even know why I’m posting this here, it’s not like I’ll miraculously get a solution for my problem from you guys but I can’t really tell anyone else, not even my friends so I’m pouring my heart out on here, dil ka bhoj halka karney ke liyey yeh post likh raha houn.
LOL sorry but couldn’t help but laughing when u said that
Anywayz why don’t you try to talk to her, I mean she did talk to you didn’t she.. Maybe she feels the same way as you do.. you never know opposites do attract sometimes So basically your just in love with her caz of the way she looks.. you don’t even really know her … lolz oh well Good LucK
It happens dude, we all get nervous and feel hopeless when falling in love (though really its lust) :) Your reaction is normal, don't freak out if this keeps going on cos sooner or later you WILL find your nerves to talk to her properly. Sometimes being nervous even works in your favour, she'll take the hint and women like a guy being shy/nervous as opposed to some macho man.
*"My fiancée is a village girl and I love her just the way she is, she speaks English, Pashto, Dari (Persian), Urdu, and Punjabi and she’s very traditional and conservative." *
That’s just “love” of conveniance, my parents chose her because she met their criteria and is from a good family and I happily agreed because I did find her attractive, I like her but I wouldn’t be too upset if she wasn’t to be..
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And who cares if shes the Boss's daughter, whats to say shes materialistic and wants a millionaire?
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'Woh' is not like that, is down to earth as anything.
At least I got some some sympathy of gorgeous yesterday, I was doing something and kind of cokced up and gorgeous was there and “awwwed” at me, Allah I’ll cherish that moment for the rest of my life…
is it a he or a she. Very peculiar of you not addressing "the person" sexiwse. You keep dodging the mention of the person's gender. Is that the main reason you cannot be with 'gorgeous"?
