Re: Is this true?
This keeps me answering new subjects for you, however you are moving away from focusing on the kufr highlighted above which you have said you suffer from. The recognition of which, as kufr, would be beneficial to you. As would looking into the reasons behind your separating Subjects such as Barakah [Tabarruk] from istimdad [aid/help/benefit], and your being far away from the understanding of Muslims
Isa Alaihis Salam is Madad, so not just Oh Isa Alaihis Salam help me but He is confirmed help for this Ummat. Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala calls Isa Alaihis Salam Ruhullah as Al-Masihu and He makes clay birds with His Hands and blows unto them and makes them real life, bi iznillah
I do believe we must say ‘‘Oh Isa Help me’’ and we must fulfil this requirement as a community before the end of times in order to be given the help of Allah Ta’ala.
So its not one or the other, I believe in the help of Both