In big trouble

[Nina85]

Re: In big trouble

@saggirl

Fear of not being happy somewhere else and not being able to forget him. And blaming myself for ruining the relationship with my stupid mistakes.
Guilt that he was going to go another route until I came along and he chose me but when the going got tough I got up and left.
Sometimes I think of the love we had and I want it back and I think if I can get over this problem then it’ll be alright from there.

ok, no offense, but you need to mature, grow a backbone and some self esteem. No one who actually love themself would stay in a relationship for those reasons. The truth is you will forget him, you will find someone else and for whatever reasons your relationship didnt work out, you will learn from it and grow. Stop being so bollywood about this: no relationship goes back to how it used to be, you are running after something that does not exist. And him being good to you 60% of the time is not enough, he and you shoudl be able to be good to each other all the time, even during rough patches. Given that this is not the case and he is well on his way of being abusive, be tough and leave. That’s why I said get some self esteem, work on yourself. You wont leave as long as you dont fdeel you ddeserve better, and he will take advantage of that.