Re: In a situation like this…
He declared his love for me a day before returning. He said he didnt care what I looked like. Fat, boney, ugly, bald, buddhi, short, whatever. This was after I told him I was a fat, ugly girl who looks too old for her age. He said, “I need you heart.” Doesnt it slightly sounds like a fairy-tale? I keep getting in and out of it every now and then. Things in reality do not look as charming as they sound
LK, I dont have any regrets as of yet. I hope I dont have in the future either. I think it is primarily bcz these ‘relationships’ business appears complicating to me. I dont want to get into one at present. Maybe this is why these things do not affect me much. Maybe, later on in life, I’ll regret but not yet.
LK, if I wanted to fake it, it was to avoid to cause him pain not cz I would continue with it. I was thinking that I shall slowly step back without letting him realise why. But actually he was very clever and figured from my changed attitude. That change was natural not delibrate. And I could not nicely answer his question if I liked the way he looked. I think I have forgotten how to lie. That’s disgusting on my part.
LK… 
InshaAllah you will find the most handsome looking gentleman, you’ll see. You’re so beautiful from the heart.
I think I answered this above. I couldnt fake it for more than two days. Then he didnt call. I havent called either. Then last week he called but I know it must be to update me about that business what actually got me into this situation. I did not call back. I rather checked from the office from someone else.
Hii Allaahh… no need to be so descriptive about what and how I should think of him.