I'm gay....what do I do?

-psychiatrists don't think of homosexuality as a disorder so going to one would be useless, because they would probably try to help me get comfortable with myself, or even try to help me come out to my family. another thing, psychiatrists are expensive, and I do not have that kind of money to waste.
-no legitimate professional is going to give someone hormone treatment because they want to be "cured" of being gay. maybe in pakistan they do that, but not here where I live.
-I have had 20 years of getting active with the attractive aspects of the opposite sex, and so far nothing seems to "tickle my pickle"