you sound like you are going through an existentialist crisis. Do what PCG said. Regroup. Take time out for you.
Your body and mind are very good at telling you when something isnt working out for them. You should listen before you do yourself some real psychological damage. (by way of depression etc).
And another thing. Life is not linear, it is a personal journey and you dont have to be at any stage. There are granted norms, but you should focus on how/what you WANT to be doing and evaluate from there.
All the best.
Also as a parting shot, I dont think you should worry about losing the faith thing. It is like a waves and falls in crests and peaks. Take care of the pragmatic things that you have control over. This will give you peace of mind that then allows you to critally examine the state of your religious devotion.
In my current situation, it seems like following the norms is a blessing. there is less psychological pain that way.
I'm glad you mentioned existentialist crisis. I had a faint idea what it was but looked it up again. sounds exactly like what I am going through. any suggestions how to deal with it? And what would you recommend re. listening to what the mind and body are telling us. meditation? prayer? intuition/gut feelings?
I pretty much understand what you are saying about faith and the waves. That is the reason I didn't write much on it.
Thanks