the family and financial issues you're facing sound pretty common but what caught my eye is that your spiritual connection with God isn't there anymore. i found that truly shocking, especially considering your background. this can be on of the reasons you don't have peace of mind. i can assure you'll be a much happier person once your faith is restored. and i also believe that you need some good friends in your life. you need an actual person you can share your problems and other personal matters with.
"especially considering your background". could you please elaborate on that a little?
and thanks for your prayers.