sweetdoll, darling your only 20 years old. Same age as me. At 17 i was ready to get married. Thank God i didnt. Thats because at 17 i had nothing going on. So a rishta came thru and i said yes and it was going thru. But my gut feeling wasnt right. Now i thank God i didnt get married. And sometimes i think what if. But now i’m gonna start going to college again, get my life back in order. Find a new hobby. It hurts i understand, but you left him for a reason. Ofcourse your gonna feel lonely and regretful. But believe me it **WILL **pass and you will meet sum1 better when your 23-24. You can get married again and learn from your mistakes.
Keep yourself occupied, When you dont you will start thinking and feeling depressed again. Allah wrote this… He has surly wrote you sumthing better Inshallah. Allah doesnt give us things we cant handle.
Put your heart and faith into Allah, Cry to him and he WILL listen to you. The more sorry Allah see’s you. The more he will help you. Allah is the most merciful!!
Dont worry sweetdoll. xxxxx