.. yes i know its an awful thing to say and feel about you’re own dad, but it’s totally true. I feel guilty for hating him, but i can’t stand the sight of him. As a child i always held him in high esteem but as i get older I realize what kind of person he is.
My dad has made our life a living hell. He is awful with money and there is no end to the amout of money he has borrowed from banks, loan sharks, family members and family friends, only to never pay them back. He thinks he is some kind of tycoon, and yes i know he is doing it with the intention to build up a business and and bring in money so he can put a roof on our head and to put food on our table. He would never pays bills we constantly have court letters being sent to us and bailaffs visitin us threatening to evict us.
We didnt have a mortgage to pay as my grandfather ( dada) bought our house for us when my parents got married and set up a business for my dad. My dad however mortagaaged our house and his whole business premises to generate capital for a ridiculous business investment. he did this without consulting with anyone, and fraudently removed my dada’s name from the properties and my mums without consulting any body essenstialy fradulently forging their signatures. He continue to borrow money, never pay bills and basically all the money we were eating food from was borrowd , my mum had no knowldge of this , depsite becoming suspicious of what he was doing but he said everything will be fine. He lied about everything constantly, he lies nono-stop about everything anything still does it to this day
He would employ ppl and not pay them, allow them to invest their money into ventures an they would loose all they invested, and then blame them for everything, when their wives would aproacj my mum she wouldn;t have any knowledge of it, when my mum would confront him about it he would go to their houses and swear and scream at them in front of their families and threaten them, ive come to learn all of this now and im disgusted
we eventually endud up loosing anything and he was made bankrupt. He knew he was going bankrupt but told us he would be able to save her home, he even emotinally blackmailed my nana ( mum;s father) into sending money from pakistan to help and ensured it would mean we wouldn;t loose our house. He used that money for something lied and we lost our home, he told a week before we were meant to be thrown out of our home and it was during ramadhan, i have younger siblings and they were devatstated, as was my mum, we had nowhere to go, and had to stay with family friends for a while, as well as becoming the joke of the city- ppl i knew stopped talking to me or if they did it was to enquire what excatly happening no one came to help
he also caused his own father to go bankrupt, he clearly has no regard for anything
he emotionally blackmailed my nana into sending money from pakistan for a downpayment for a small house on mortgage on my mums name, everyone refused but he emotionally blackmailed him by saying his grandchildren had nowhere to go
2 years down the lane we are facing eviction notices and court notices for failure to pay mortgage arreas, we have randomn uncles from the community and uncles we know coming to our dear screaming at out mother saying our father pleaded with them for money for an emergency but after taking the money he never return their calls doesnt talk to them and doesn;t even acnowledge he even borrowed from them
when my mum confronts him about it he hits her and beats her up he never used to do this, he goes to work in a building he is renting does no work sits and does nothing returns home late at nigh and i dont see him for days on end, he doesnt pay for our food or our bills and when confrontd about taking other ppls money he says its not his fault he doesnt have money and if we’re so concerned we should pay them back ourselves
he lies and swears, he doesnt read his namaz, he abuses my mum i hate him so much, I just wish Allah would help us weve been going through this hell for so long , ppl say its just material things, its not even about material things, i dont mind livining wherever its the owing ppl money which gets to me. 
and these ppl threaten him with violence and that they’ll harm his family and he doesn’t even care about this
i try and helo towards buying groceries as much as possible but im still young and i earn peanuts, hes even taken loans in my name without my knowledge, and if i dont pay up im in trouble
life feels like it isnt worth living at times, you don;t expect you’re parents to wreck you’re life like this, i live is constant fear of ppl chasing me for money that my father owes me
I feel bad because he is my dad but he has alot to answer to Allah, borrowing money is frowned upon in islam and i think there is even a hadith stating that a man who takes loans is a man who lies
deep down i know he isnt a bad person, but i cant help but hate him, and there is just no way out of this mess he has created
