If I were to go buy a pair of shoes for my kids tomorrow yes there will be an issue made out of it as in why couldn’t you wait till the weekend and ghar se nikalne ka Bahut shauq hai stuff that no one would want to hear. My household setup is such that I stay home with kids unless it is really necessary for me to go to store to get milk and such otherwise I am home and on the weekends we go out sometimes to the mall but very seldom buy anything and of course there is grocery which again we do together. The reason I feel awkward spending money is because of the reaction I get . Firstly he doesn’t get involved in the shopping other than wanting to know the price and if its on sale or not and secondly the change in mood being happy if nothing is bought vs being irritable if I buy some. Call it my low self esteem or whatever but I don’t feel comfortable buying anything when my husband doesn’t get happy if I buy something for myself. It shows a lack of care and respect which is hurting.
I will still talk to him in regards to the setup we have and also look for a job when my kids are of school age . I have a degree in accounting so hopefully won’t be too hard to find a job