There is a guy who i have been friends with for a while now. I sometimes felt he liked me but then i ignored the thing thinking its nothing. There were some clear hints too but i did not realize them. he is a great person with some faults like all of us do but for me he was a friend. Last week i came to know that he has liked me for a long time now. We discussed it over and i came to know that he always felt that i was out of range for him or lets say too good for him which is why he never told me.He said he had fear of rejection and was always scared he would jeopardize the present relation.He always felt my parents would never agree and things would go sour between us. So he said yes to a girl his parents had selected for him. He did not let me know any thing due to the reasons mentioned. Now that i know that he liked me, we both took it lightly because he had already said yes to some one. I asked him how could he move on if he was serious, he told me that it all seemed like some thing unreachable for me so i said yes to who ever my parents liked. Anyway, realizing that he was now engaged and has his reasons for not confiding, i kept it all light just joking about things and he too enjoyed and told me all things that had been going on.
But now i have started to feel possessive and jealous about it. He never told me, maybe if he had i would have said yes. We are great friends and also study together.Now when he is on the phone with her or something i feel bad that if he had told me earlier how things would have been different. Its a completely weird feeling. I am finding it difficult to accept that he has now moved on, how he forgot it all and how he did not even give it a chance. I have no doubts about his sincerity or genuineness but to be able to accept it all is hard for me at present. I know he is engaged and there is a new girl in his life now but i just feel i was the rightful person originally. These feelings are appearing probably because now i am not getting the due attention or after knowing how strongly he felt for me.I know nothing much can be done about it but constantly when we have projects together and we study together its so difficult to move back. I know there is no hope out there. I always show him i am good and no problem about anything. In fact i joke about it with him so that he does not feel i have any feelings and he may ruin his present relation and especially ruin some one else’s life. I just need everyone’s views how they were able to move on when they had to take a few steps back from some one. Please dont suggest we cut off because that cant happen due to many study related reasons. How should i move on?
