kaun
February 9, 2010, 3:02am
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“As a young girl like everyone else I had dreams but my life has not panned out as I had planned. Any happy recollections are a distant memory now and any hope I had has slipped through my fingers. I’m spiralling down into a black hole and I am in the deepest depths of despair.
My father brought untold misery into my life, he was violent and controlling. Unlike other children, as I was growing up, I was rarely allowed to see friends, never allowed to stay over and lived at home while at University. As I grew older, I had to constantly explain myself whenever I left the house and it was unacceptable for me to attend the phone or answer the door. I was desperate for love and I wrongly sought it elsewhere.
My self esteem and confidence deserted me and my social life and communication skills were stunted.
I am in my late Twenties now, my whole life has been a waste, I have so many regrets, I wish I could turn back the tide of time and faced my father, made my own decisions, decided my own fate but I was weak.
I am trundling off to the beach now, I want to see the sun go down for the very last time, my fate was sealed long before this. Lest we forget we all have to meet our creator and this seems like a good day.”
Keto does this mean what i think this means
P.S life is short, problems are part of it, so live and enjoy even the sorrows and InshaAllah good times will come, deir sey hee sahi aayeingey zaroor, never lose faith in Allah :k:
