do you see it as being an integral part of it, where you see helping others, making a difference, making a history? (you are the actor)
OR
do you see it as where you stand/sit somewhere and absorb every emotion, every movement, every action, writing a history? (you are the witness of the actor)
Well I used to feel like I was the Audience and could not make a difference… then I felt like an Actor I was the difference… for a while at least… now I am niether Audience or Actor.
When I was younger I used to have a keen thirst for knowledge, I still have that thirst but I never really felt like I was making a contribution… not even a little one. Then when I was about 13 I realised with a sudden shock that not only in my fammily but in all my people I seemed to be the dinosaur from another age… the Don Quixote of the Pind… the Last Warrior… etc.
I felt like I had to do all I could to change what was around me… to preserve what I saw as a dying way of life… sometimes I still feel very strongly in that way… I was not so thirsty for knowledge anymore. By my 18th Summer I was a ignorant buffooon a slave to the will of others… literally I was used for good and bad like a tool. People abused my ability as I abused thier trust… I wandered endlessly through this world but not with the eyes of childhood… eager for knowledge.
My eyes had become full of hate, my heart had become stone… like an Actor I knew my lines. I knew the score, I just played my role endlessly… I meandered across the globe but instead of learning anything…and taking advantage of what I saw I was constantly destroying things… the childhood lover of all things great and small… had become a monster… a creature of hatred… one of those Actors you just recoil from when you see the poster.
But now I am not Actor or Audience I am merely the stagehand… nobody really sees the work I do anymore… at least thats how it feels sometimes… I dont wander the way I used to… as I get older the less I will be seen and the less I will see in turn…
But with age comes wisdom and maybe from a humble stagehand I might become the very mastermind the Director of my world.
So there you are… right from the moment I was born… maybe even before that… life was a struggle I live easy now but my mind and body are always locked in some struggle great or small… it is that feeling of the struggle that makes me know I’m still alive… when i stop struggling then it will be the end for sure.
But until then like the stagehand… I do my little bit seen or unseen… I’m still there… the world can probably not see me through the curtains but I have had my brief glimpse of the stage and when the Music starts maybe I will still be there for the show… maybe not.
Good thing is though that even if people never see me… somebody out there will appreciate the stage art… even if the never meet the artist… likewise there will always be critics but I’d like to see them do better… it’s easy to say things from behind the screen.
Honestly feel like I am both the audience and the actor, when I'm by myself, I'm the audience, when I'm with my family or my friends I am the actor, does that make sense?
do you see it as being an integral part of it, where you see helping others, making a difference, making a history? (you are the actor)
OR
do you see it as where you stand/sit somewhere and absorb every emotion, every movement, every action, writing a history? (you are the witness of the actor)
Good thread idea!
I am trying to be the witness of the audience AND the actor. I am trying to become an observer of the actor(s) and the audience, and then use that knowledge to be a better actor and a better audience.
If you live your life sticking to either one of the two roles, I think you're missing out on life. Life is about acting and making differences (for the better, please) and also to observe and learn from the actors and others in the audience.
Right now, both the actor and the audience is myself. When the time is right, I will hopefully be able to extend it to others.
do you see it as being an integral part of it, where you see helping others, making a difference, making a history? (you are the actor)
OR
do you see it as where you stand/sit somewhere and absorb every emotion, every movement, every action, writing a history? (you are the witness of the actor)
ITS A FAKE WORLD...Pulled before our eyes.......Watch "MATRIX" and you may have a little idea :)**
The integrity required in being the integral part of any society not only pertains to one being active but also is quiet necessary. As well, this thread is quiet humorous.
The integrity required in being the integral part of any society not only pertains to one being active but also is quiet necessary. As well, this thread is quiet humorous.
Dushwari
is it you Dushwari? or is it AQ? or is it someone who is Dushwari jee's diehard fan, who remembered all her quotes.
I like this question. I think I have been the analytical, look before leaping, theory over practice type, always, so I end up being more of an observer at imes. I think it's gotten worse, now that I'm a mom.