Re: How can I be like Mr Fraudia ?
waisay in all seriousness guys, I post my positive experiences here, and even those that are negative I try to find the silver lining in the clouds sometimes it is possible sometimes it is not possible.
I have posted about my failures here, big failures. some may recall the fact that in dec 2005 I left my old company because even though the product we launched was getting rave reviews, we did not get the right support from the company and my boss left. I could have written about it in a dejected manner that 2 years of backbreaking work went for nothing, I posted it as a positive that I recognized that pouring myself in it any more would not give any returns.. yet that sense of loss of leaving something you built from scrath and seeing it just wither is always there.
I have posted about my failure to convince one doctor to give my wife the treatment that could have saved my twins Danyal and Amber. to me the biggest failure in my life. to this day I feel guilty about taking that trip, because maybe just maybe had we been in chicago when it happened we would have had better care...but I can not sit and harp on it day in day out because that will drive me crazy.
I have posted about my incorrect approach to handle depression by burying myself into work in 2004 and 2005.
life is not perfect, no body is perfect, no body has a perfect life.
Either you live with the cards you have been dealt and be thankful for who you are and what you have and what you have done, or you harp on the negatives, focus on the negatives and become a bitter miserable person.
we all have negative events in our life, interviews for which we did not get offers, schools we could not get into, opportunities we never had.... or we can focus on what we do have, what we did become and what we have accomplished.
Its not new, as early as undergrad days I have been called a happy go lucky guy. Even at my new role my colleagues sometimes joke about the perpetual sunshine I seem to be living in.
I just deal with me demons in the dark, I deal with them alone, and then I push them back into the dark depths from where they haunt me, and face a new day with a smile on my face, and enternal sunshine around me.
I can post day in day out about how to this day everyday I miss danyal and amber..how as we donate the things we had bought for them it hurts like hell.. or I can focus on the love that I have for aydin and amber and what they mean to me and how much fun i have with them.
for those who have read my journal, teh songs I post in there sometimes speak for my frame of mind...when i post songs like "halo' by depeche mode its because they deal with my guilt, my sorrow, my pain better than I can state it.."you wear guilt liek shackles on yiour feet, like a halo in reverse" .. to songs that talk about my attempts to pull myself out of depression, songs like return of the mack, im' gonna knock you out, and back in the highlife...and songs when i am back in control...walking on sunshine, etc etc.
Alhumdulillah, I am thankful to god for my family. my health, for making me who I am, and for giving me teh strength to deal with the tests that have come my way.
life is short, make the most of it, there will be bumps on the way, some big, some small..but teh fact that you are on the road to begin with, and you have a future should be enough to thank the creator, and look at the scenere and teh road ahead rather than focusing on better cars on the road, cars ahead of you, or looking in your rear view mirror atthe potholes you have already hit or dodged.
I think I have used all the cliches in this post so I will end it by telling you two most important things I learnt in college
1) life is not fair, it will not be fair, you can not make it fair, you have to do the best you can knowing that it is unfair
2) college is a great place to learn and to get rid of your baggage, in real life there will be many people richer than you, better looking than you, more accomplished than you, smarter than you, but.. they will not be YOU. know who you are, be proud of who you are, be happy with who you are.