Re: help me to learn how to let go
I also read your post that you dont pray 5 times anymore. All of us miss some prayers but keeping all the five is in our best interest. Especially in your condition (crying for no reason/depression), the reason could also be poor circulation of blood to the brain. Praying 5 times helps normalize blood circulation towards the brain/face. So try pray all the 5 times and try to spend some extra time in sajda. That would help you fight depression InshaAllah. Also, ensure you’re getting enough sleep because sleep deprivation also causes this kind of depression. Too much caffeine is one major cause of depression so remove it all together from your diet and replace fresh fruits and other healthy foods. You will feel so much better.
I think you’re stressing over very petty things. Stop comparing yourself with others. Giving gifts is sunnah so take little things for your siblings whenever you can. Not necessarily expensive. It is the thought that counts.